Society for the Preservation of My Sanity

I'll be there...

I might not be worth very much, but Lord willing and the creek don't rise... I'll be there.

Well... that's not quite as true as it used to be. Some days I don't feel like getting out of the bed. Thank God that's not as often as it used to be, but sheesh... when it IS that a-way... man! it's REALLY that a-way!! Ugh!

Today has been gorgeous weather. Just beautiful. Nice milder temps. Lower humidity. Ahhh. I wasn't out a whole lot. Just for a few minutes here and there.

Tommy and Corey left to help Daddy work this morning at 8am. :( He had two different jobs that required going in when the plant or offices were shut down or empty. You can imagine what kind of shape Dad's been in this past week with just him and Corey working. FIL should be able to come back, according to what he says the doc told him, next week!!! I dunno if he's supposed to be restricted then, but looks like surely he would be. I dunno for sure yet. Anyhow... FIL is a hard worker and he's been able to put up with Daddy's moods and mouth longer than most anybody else. But.. he's cost Dad a whole lot to keep working, too. I guess anyone else would have fired FIL way back for a few of the things he's done. I won't go into them out fo respect.

I do care for FIL, even though he can do some really dumbhead things sometimes. At least he tries. At least he's real. MIL? You can't ever get close to her. I think the only time you see the real her is when she's all panicky like she was in the hospital or when she's mad enough to show it. I think that's the only time she's real. I know she's had a lot of bad things in her life. She had a bad home life and still has to deal with it, or chooses to still deal with her family. I don't know which it is. So I try not to judge too harshly, even though... well, there have been some bad things between us. Not so much me personally, but with Tommy or the kids. Just mostly thoughtless or hurtful things, that have made deep impressions in the memory, ya know? But anyhow... ours is a strange kinda family, but for the most part, it works.

When something goes wrong, when help is needed... we're there for each other. I don't know how many times FIL has loaned or given us money for various things. Or has come over and helped us work at the house... he helped pour the patio for nothing more in return than an endless supply of iced tea and some sandwiches for lunch. He helped us finish painting... just because that's what we were doing when he stopped by. He's always doing stuff like that. And I appreciate it.

So... it was just me and Case at home today. We watched our favorite Kentucky preacher on tv. Oh, how I would love to live close enough to hear him in person every week!! We didn't try to go to church. We haven't been to our home church in so long it would have been awkward going without the others. And the church close by that we've been going to (because we have been so late getting ready lately... we just stop there) is not really a church we'd join... but many people we know or are related to, go there and are beginning to get ideas about us... I'm just not really comfortable at all. Oh, and it's the church that FIL and MIL belong to. It might have been nice to speak to the pastor if we'd gotten to see him. It's a big, "uptown" type church where lots of bankers and lawyers and doctors go. The sermons are normally pretty good... they just tend to 'stop short' somehow. I don't know how to explain it. They just don't "go the distance". They don't "drive the message home." Maybe you understand what I'm trying to say....

I just find it hard to attend there let alone even think about joining because I know for a fact that there are women & men who are living in adultery teaching children's Sunday school!! A classmate of mine sits across the aisle from me with her umpteenth 'boyfriend' after her divorce and living with at least one man (that we know personally) for over three years... after that I know she's dated around quite a lot. And she'll sit there and play whatever with her poor little kid never paying an iota of attention to the sermon she so desperately needs to hear.

*siiigh* Okay... I'm going to have to create a category for posts that really don't have a main topic.... which would be MOST of my posts. Gah. I get sick of myself. Sheesh.

Okay...anyhow, the guys finally got home about 9:30pm or so. :( Long, long day. They did get the work done at least. PTL! Hopefully, tomorrow won't be too rough either. And Lord willing? I can get a lot of stuff done around here!!

Have a blessed Lord's Day!